Let me start by saying that these past few months feels like a dream to me. We’re almost three months in our relationship and I’ve gotta say that time’s been passing by the slowest it’s ever been in my life. Even though mentally I feel like we’ve been together forever, we are still young. We’re still learning the things not to do that make each other tick. We’re finding new ways to make each other smile. And most importantly, we’re learning to live not just for one person, but for two people who are intertwined by chance, choice, fate, or whatever you want to call it. Honestly, you’ve been the most difficult person I’ve ever been with. There are times when I think I did the right thing, but that ends up frustrating you. There are times when I fuck up without knowing and you hold it in and release your WRATH on me later. Sometimes, it’s so hard to swallow my pride and literally just take it like a man. Even though it’s been hard for both of us, I can’t say enough how glad I am that it’s you+me. Like you said, I’ve always had it my way. I was always the perfect one. But you came into my life and shattered my big ego. We have our good days when its nothing but bliss and our bad days when we become strangers. But through it all, I’m learning to fight more not just for myself but for you. If it all came easy, it wouldn’t mean anything. Behind every fight, argument, misunderstanding, or straight up shitty days, you’ve been teaching me what it’s like to be in an authentic, strong relationship. Before we were together, I told you one of my criteria was that I wanted a mature, collected person who could teach me and help me grow. I’m beginning to think that you are teaching me. Not necessarily in the way of you telling me things to do, but in the way I learn how to behave toward you. I might regret saying this but don’t be easy on me. In fact, be harder on me than any of your past relationships. Not in an immature, self centered way, but in way that will make me a good person, a good friend, and a good boyfriend. I hope you take this sincerely because I know at times I could be one indifferent, cocky, and prideful mothafuckaaa. You've been nothing but good to me and my love for you grows stronger every passing day. Whatever comes our way, I hope you will stick by me and continue to be worth it. Every memory we make, every moment we share, every breath we take, I will forever be grateful that it was done with you. I will cherish everything we had thus far and look forward to our future together. You are my dream come true.

DAY OUT.

I wish all the time that I was perfect. I would know all the right things to do and say to people. Others would never get hurt, and I wouldn’t take prisoners because of my mistakes. I not only want the best for me, but also to bring out the best in others. Why is it that only the worst side of me comes out all the time when I mean the total opposite... I need to fix myself before I can help others.